eric paul owens

So this Sea Studios contacted me a few months ago and asked to use on of my images in their climate change film, Ahead of the Curve. I agreed to let them use it and today I recieved a dvd copy of the first film to have one of my pictures in it. Pretty cool.

you can see it online by following the link above.

Having something come out great just washes the bad feelings of earlier this week away.

I go through these fits sometimes where I just hate everything I do. I think my work and myself is some big fraud and I over question every little decision about it. On those days I get very obsessive and insecure. Usually it starts with some image that does not really work out. Today it is the above image of Emily.

For some reason I in my head loved this image and I still do. But in reality my bad choices with lighting aged her about 10 years and then I obsessed for two days about how much to dial that back in post. I am still obsessing about it and writing this is how I cope.

It feels like I keep progressing toward nowhere. My work seems better to me than it did a month ago and yet I wonder if "better" really translates to more "marketable" or if better is better to anyone but myself. A few of the shoots I was excited about lately have gotten so little response, and the models are not even using the images. I feel like I wasted three hours of one models time recently, she has not gotten one image she is using out of it yet. She seems happy with me, but what the hell am I doing wrong...

I want to start submitting work to agencies and publications but I am constantly told my work is all over the map and that an agency or publication needs to be able to know what place to put me in. I feel like the quirky glamour stuff is where I am best but really unless you have Elton John and Andy Warhol to cling onto you are not going to be LaChappelle.

Everything costs so much money. The equipment I make gets oohs and ahhs from the local set, but how the hell am I supposed to go to a professional client with a turkey pan, a cardboard box, and a ziploc bowl. I tell myself that I will slowly build my equipment kit. Am I kidding myself? When am I going to decide to sink hundreds of dollars into a studio strobe, or an actual softbox.

ehh. I need prozac...

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